Winner or Loser

Winner or Loser

A  friend of mine said that I should do something beyond my own limitation, do something I had never done as far. The most difficult phase for a rocket-launching is when it penetrated through the atmosphere, after going beyond it, it can drift a lot more easily.

All I have to do for now is seizing the day to do something I afraid of doing in the whole my life. Because, most people regrets for something they could have done, not the things they have done.

"Perhaps, I was born to be a loser" I said.

"Nobody in this world born to be a loser, actually, all human being have already become a winner even before they were born. In the form of sperm, everybody has successfully defeated thousands opponent in the aims to be the first to reach the ovum. We are one among thousands.

And now you are here, among other winners, but you don't have to worry about defeating others, because all you have to do is defeating yourself. I know you can do it, you are a strong man.'" He said with igneous eyes.

Bertemu Maho (one of the cases)

Sebenarnya, dari awal gua udah ga enak perasaan sih pas di perjalanan pulang tadi tuh, Apalagi pas ada mas-mas bermuka tirus, berbadan kurus, dan berbaju hitam ketat, kira-kira 25 tahunan yang naik di sekitar Jln. Setiabudhi. Dari pas dia naik, dia ngeliatin gua mulu dong. Gua duduk di tempat biasa, pojok kiri belakang, dan dia duduk di arah jam 10 dari gua sebelum para penumpang lain mulai turun dan akhirnya dia pindah tepat didepan gua.

Di sekitaran Dago, dia udah mulai kepo-kepo

He: pulang kemana?

Me: (sambil melepaskan hansfree) ke Cicaheum.

He: rumah atau ngekost? asal mana?

Me: Rumah, Asal Bandung Selatan

He: oh, ada orang tua ya dirumah?

Me: Iya, dirumah ga pernah sepi (masang Handsfree lagi)

Five minutes later

He: Kuliah atau kerja?

Me: kuliah.

He: dimana? semester berapa?

Me: di UPI .. hmm 4.

He: (sambil ngedeketin dan megang paha gua) anak kuliah tuh cocoknya sama yg udah kerja lho.

Me: iya (gua ketawa kepaksa)

He: iya, emang bener gitu, anak kuliah tuh kan kebutuhannya banyak, iya kan?

Me: iya sih..

He: Main ke kosan saya yu?

Me: ah udah malem,besok harus pergi kuliah shubuuuh banget, soalnya ada acara jurusan, lagian udah ditunggu mama nih

He: sebentar aja kok, nanti pulangnya saya antar, mau ya?

Me: emang dimana? saya ga tau jalan ah. << (this is my biggest mistake)

He: di Cikutra, nanti pulangnya saya anterin ko, hayu ih

Me: Lain kali aja kayaknya, saya orang baru disini, jadi masih ga berani main jauh jauh.

He: ya ga apa-apa, nanti pulangnya saya antar kok, terus kalo butuh biaya buat kuliah, bilang aja ke saya.

Me: iya.. tapi beneran, saya sudah ditunggu mama nih, lain kali aja ya.

He: ya udah, minta nomer HP nya dong (sambil ngeluarin HP)

Me: ngeluarin HP (cari nama orang di kontak randomly) ini, liat aja sendiri yang namanya BEM (sambil nunjukin HP)

He: ya udah, nanti saya hubungin ya.

dan akhirnya dia turun disekitar jalan Cikutra, untung aja dia ga nge misscall. Dan kayaknya gua harus minta maaf sama anak Bem yang nomer HP-nya gua kasih ke tu maho. I'm so sorry kalo nanti tiba tiba ada cowok ga jelas yang ngehubungin BEM ngajak main ke kosannya. I'm really sorry.

3 Mei 2013. 8 P.M.

Morning Jog

Morning Jog

The sky was shinny as the prediction, I was still looking at the sky when finally I felt bored crept into my mind, then I decided to take my muddy shoes and started jogging. I was wondering where I should go, I needed to go to the quite and silent place so that I could take my mood and inspirations back after days of exhausting on the weekdays.

After running about 1 km, I found the quiet and picturesque place, and the most important one was that the place could remind me about something awaited me. In my left and right side, I could see thousands gravestone laid down in the broad expanse of the green grass illuminated by the morning sun. It was the most tranquil place I have ever seen. When I was walking and looking at my predecessor, I felt like being invited to join their tranquility. "I will soon join you" I said.

I continued walking up the stairs and I saw the view of the rising sun at my left side, the long green shimmering grass passionate me that my life was just the beginning and I had a long time to develop myself and to observe the world. The view in my left side was contrasted by the one on the other side, the dried and yellowing expanse of grass represented the dusk and weariness that made me feel as if my time has close, and I had life for along time but there was no good and important things I had made in my whole life.

Staring at the half-mast flag and the monument, I realized that those who was lied surrounding me had given everything they had for the place where I stand. I realized that their struggling was not finished, it was my duty to continue their struggle, not struggle by fighting against the outsider, but against myself.

Beasiswa DataPrint 2013

Beasiswa DataPrint 2013

Program beasiswa DataPrint telah memasuki tahun ketiga. Setelah sukses mengadakan program beasiswa di tahun 2011 dan 2012, maka DataPrint kembali membuat program beasiswa bagi penggunanya yang berstatus pelajar dan mahasiswa.  Hingga saat ini lebih dari 1000 beasiswa telah diberikan bagi penggunanya.

Di tahun 2013 sebanyak 500 beasiswa akan diberikan bagi pendaftar yang terseleksi. Program beasiswa dibagi dalam dua periode. Tidak ada sistem kuota berdasarkan daerah dan atau sekolah/perguruan tinggi. Hal ini bertujuan agar beasiswa dapat diterima secara merata bagi seluruh pengguna DataPrint.  Beasiswa terbagi dalam tiga nominal yaitu Rp 250 ribu, Rp 500 ribu dan Rp 1 juta. Dana beasiswa akan diberikan satu kali bagi peserta yang lolos penilaian. Aspek penilaian berdasarkan dari essay, prestasi dan keaktifan peserta.

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Essay

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2. Penulisan dan tata bahasa sesuai dengan kaidah EYD.

3. Panjang tulisan minimal 100 kata, maksimal 500 kata.

4. Penulisan kutipan atau data tanpa menyertakan sumber/link akan dianggap copy paste dan formulir akan didiskualifikasi oleh panitia.

5. Bagi pemilik blog, tuliskan informasi mengenai beasiswa DataPrint di blog kamu, sertakan juga link/tautan ke website beasiswa DataPrint (www.beasiswadataprint.com)  dan website DataPrint (www.dataprint.co.id) . Kemudian cantumkan link yang berisi informasi ini ke dalam kolom “URL BLOG” di formulir pendaftaran. Pencantuman informasi dalam blog kamu akan menambah poin dalam penilaian sebesar 1-3 poin.

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A Mysterious Girl

A Mysterious Girl

In a bridge, I was standing, looking down the sea of thousands light moving randomly The dark sky contrasted by the luminous dots made that evening more beautiful although the drizzle dropped and created more sadness in the face of the traders down there.

When I was staring blankly at nothing, there came a long-haired girl with a mole on her left cheek, wearing black cardigan and long jeans came to me with her umbrella, she looked familiar.

"I was watching you down there, I" thought you were going to commit suicide, so I come here." said the girl smilingly.

"Haha yeah, I would have jumped if you didn't come. Actually I just wanna step outside from my normal and monotonous life."

"The view is always wonderful, I used to come here staring at the sparkling lights. Looking for revelation hah?"

"It's kinda boring staying at home, doing similar things continually, I just wanna do something different, something unusual. What are you doing here? Isn't it dangerous for a girl staying here in the evening?."

"Yeah, sometimes we need to do something ridiculous, just to ensure you're not a robot being programmed doing the same things all the time in your life. My mother is down there, repairing her trousers in that tailor. Anyway, I have to go, hopefully, we'll meet again sometime. bye..."

The girl leaved without telling me her name and I forgot telling her mine too. But my conscience tells me that I will meet her someday, I will.

February 2012

Used to…

Used to…

“It has been a year since the last time I saw them, a young man with a lady. They used to jog here every week at 6.45 a.m. They used to come to have a glass of milk and some pieces of gorengan. They used to sit on that old bamboo bench and seemed to have a very interesting conversation; they talked and made fun of everything. Somehow, they remind me of the simple, classical and unconditional love of your late grandpa, we used to do the similar things as they did.” Said the old lady with tears running down her cheeks.

“Are they in a relationship?”

“I am not sure, they came here as if they we string together as one with a bond of love, but I have never seen them showing any affections. However, it was depicted by the young man’s eyes that he bestowed all his love to her, but I think the lady didn’t notice that yet, or perhaps her heart have been belonged to another man. Women’s heart is like a black hole, it is too deep and too dark so that nobody can see it.”

The boy with his frowning face asked “Why didn’t the young man tell her his feeling?.”

“Oh... That is not that simple dear, a man might easily declare his love to a thousand girls, but it will be different when he faced his true love. It will be speechless for him, as if he gave a speech in front of hundreds most-intimidating-person in the world. When you are older, you will know that the more you love a person, the harder you can even act normal in front of that person. However… Love has its way of expressing itself despite the silence.”

“Can they be a perfect couple?” asked the boy enthusiastically.

“I can’t consider them as perfect couple or not. I think the word perfect is an abstract thing that cannot be explained easily. Well... I would say that the perfect is neither about the young man nor the lady, but it is about the love. Because love is not finding the perfect person, but loving an imperfect person perfectly.

“I wanna see them, can I see them?”

“Hmm... Yes, I do want to see them too, it has been a long time, I am kind a miss them, hopefully they will return someday whether as a couple or merely as friends, just to see the ending of their love story, or I might say the young man’s love story.”

Partere

Partere

This morning, I came too early for morning class. It was 06.33 and I decided to be alone for a moment to contemplate my life. I walked to a pond and sat on the side of that pond alone. When I sat there and started contemplating, there was a thought flashed my mind that I was given only one chance to life but I have ruined everything. I was entrusted to take care of this body but what I have been doing so far was just wasting time doing boring things continually.

What are the useful things I have been done so far?

Is my life boring ? Will it be like that until the end of my life?

At least those questions echoed in my brain.

I was staring at the fishes that swam and jumped freely when I fed them with the breadcrumbs from the leftover of my breakfast. I was wondering if God mistakenly created a person like me. but God never do mistake. Then I asked my conscience about who I am. Stillness... How can I know life? I don't even know who I am.

Looking around the big trees in that park. I was wondering why God created me as human, why don't He created me as a tree?. I think being tree was simple and static. I didn't have to face directly the cruelty of this world. I didn't have to meet hypocrites. I didn't have to think about sin and reward. I just had to be peacefully stand still in the rest of my life.

The clock kept ticking and it showed 06.45 then somehow I realized that it was better for me not to waste time finding myself, but use time creating myself.

My Pathetic Romance

My Pathetic Romance

For these weeks, I have been confused by a woman who seemed to be falling in love with me but her attitude is always changing. I don't know why I feel myself a mellow man. Why should I worry about one? I mean, my life has already surrounded by many women (one of which is my grandma). Many people may say that that it is love that make my feeling stands before my logic. Actually I don't want my brain being overwhelmed by this feeling because I can easily lose my self-control. However, it is natural being distracted by love. I felt myself as human when I loved somebody.

Okay, because I have already mentioned about love, my thought has been recalled about my past memories of love. Well..I began committing a relationship in 2009 when I was in the second grade of senior high school (yeah it's quite pathetic) with a little and innocent girl but 119 days later, strangely I found myself being cheated. Actually it was a very shameful story because 3 generation of students in my school along with the cleaning service staffs and some teachers knew what was happened and how pathetic I am, but the first step always hard. Now, I know that my first Ex-girlfriend has taught me love and hurt. So from my deepest heart, I would thank her wherever she is.

After a week of confusion, desperation and the sadness I tried to escape from that tragic romance by committing my second relationship with a sweet girl (my junior as well), actually I didn't really loved her, I just wanted to unleash myself from the label of "desperate man". A week later in the beginning of January 2010 I jilted her one-sided and left her crying. It taught me that relationship should be based on a sincere love. I would say really sorry to her, I was so bad and that's absolutely my fault.

As time goes by, three months later, I've been dating with many girls and getting understand the mystery of women's heart. I continued seeking of the true meaning of love and trying to understand women's feeling by moving on from one heart to another.

My third GF was a junior high school girl (maybe many people would say I was a pedophile, but at least I'm not gay, lol). After she confessed her love to me, the one-month relationship did not walk smoothly because I rarely visited her and at that time, I was kind of clumsy. I learned that the challenges of love is when I was in the relationship, not merely a stage of approaching.

During November 2010 to March 2011, I found my forth, fifth,and sixth GFs. They were Initiator, I mean, I didn't have to say everything but they eventually asked me to do you-know-what. Well.. I appreciated them for being straightforward but because I was a naive man, I was afraid of doing sin and being sentenced to forever hell, so I denied their request. (I wish I could turn back the time, lol). From that time, I know that deep inside me, I am a good person, because I could still think about sin in the mid of temptation and desire. It was my conscience that protected me and fortunately, I heard my conscience.

In April 2011 I found my seventh girl, the 13 months of the togetherness in ups and downs has to be ended unhappily because there was great problems, so that I have to jilted her unilaterally. It was quite sad for me because I knew that she was so kind and she also accepted me the way I am because I think I didn't treat her well, I didn't gave her anything, I did't ask her for a sumptuous dinner .. etc. From that, I learn that the virtue of love is not being together, but just love the people I love sincerely wherever she was no matter  she loves you too or not.

Actually I prefer not to commit relationship, so I can observe the world and find the right complement for me without being bounded by the chain of relationship that always ended up with sorrow. So I will exert every effort not to be in any relationship until I am in more serious level to find my forever complement.

My chapter of life has been filled with love  and affection by people who loved me and the people I loved.There are many lessons I can get and learn from love. The fate has directed the path of many people to meet mine. By meeting these people, hopefully I can get the lesson to improve the quality of my life.

A Decision

A Decision

I was eager to tether my ship in that shores..  


shores that was just a starting dot was now obviously visible

I can already see the waving hands of palm trees that seemed to asked me to berth and unwind

I also see there are lots of children running around freely as if they want to greet me there

but when I'm coming closer.. closer. and closer.. seems a towering pole with sails and his body was eventually seen

I then began to put the anchor back, diverting the ark, and sailed back to the horizon..