Partere

Partere

This morning, I came too early for morning class. It was 06.33 and I decided to be alone for a moment to contemplate my life. I walked to a pond and sat on the side of that pond alone. When I sat there and started contemplating, there was a thought flashed my mind that I was given only one chance to life but I have ruined everything. I was entrusted to take care of this body but what I have been doing so far was just wasting time doing boring things continually.

What are the useful things I have been done so far?

Is my life boring ? Will it be like that until the end of my life?

At least those questions echoed in my brain.

I was staring at the fishes that swam and jumped freely when I fed them with the breadcrumbs from the leftover of my breakfast. I was wondering if God mistakenly created a person like me. but God never do mistake. Then I asked my conscience about who I am. Stillness... How can I know life? I don't even know who I am.

Looking around the big trees in that park. I was wondering why God created me as human, why don't He created me as a tree?. I think being tree was simple and static. I didn't have to face directly the cruelty of this world. I didn't have to meet hypocrites. I didn't have to think about sin and reward. I just had to be peacefully stand still in the rest of my life.

The clock kept ticking and it showed 06.45 then somehow I realized that it was better for me not to waste time finding myself, but use time creating myself.