Dear diary
May, 5th
This morning, when I was in cafeteria having a cup of coffee, there was a guy came up to my table and asked me my name. He is so kind, he told me everything about him, and somehow I am interested on him, then I told him everything about me too. I didn't know why time moves so fast, when we were laughing out loud, my daddy ruined everything, he asked me to go home soon, yeah it was nearly midnight, but I just wanted to be with him for a little longer, however, we had arranged a time for us to meet again in such date. Oh... I can't wait. :3
Dear diary
May, 8th
It was an amazing date, perhaps, one of my best date ever. He took me to such a poolside garden, we sat on a bamboo bench under an oak tree. It was a very picturesque scenery with a reflection of the moon in the surface of a still water. He held my hand for the first time as he told me some funny stories that made me explode with laughter. At that time, the stars and the moon were the witnesses of our first date. This time, we arranged a routine meeting once in three days.
Dear diary
May, 11st
May, 11st
It was our second date, I don't know whether it is a broken hear or merely an upset. This afternoon, he took me to a mall in his neighborhood. As usual, we always have a nice and funny conversation on every topic we talked. However, there came a girl, she said that she is his school-friend, maybe, my disturbance feeling is not reasonable, my heart is like broken when he introduced me as his 'friend'. Actually, I am indeed his friend, but I don't know why, somehow I wanna be someone more than his friend.
Dear diary
May, 14th
May, 14th
After three days I held some question that I eagerly wanted to ask him, this day I vomited everything to him. There was not a sign of shocking on his face, he just said that he has already known, and he said that I must have known that he loves me too. I was very glad to hear that, it just like a volcano that finally erupted. In the evening, I asked him what will happened next. I asked him if we were gonna be in a relationship or something, however, he just said that things won't work as usual if we were in a relationship. I cannot understand!
Dear diary
May, 17th
I put this day as the best day in my life. Today is exactly the 17th years I've lived in this beautiful life. Moreover, it will be the day I always remember because this is my relationship with him. He looked doubt at the first, but it is my day, so I am the queen in this day, I have successfully ensured him that after this day, everything would become more beautiful then the previous days. :*
Dear diary
May, 20th
This day, I have made some agreement regarding our relationship. We've agreed that because we have been dating, we have to put each of us in the first place. Of course, we have tied with the bond of love, so that we have to be together no matter what will happened. Oh thanks God, I can be with him more often. :D
Dear diary
May, 21st
Today, we have a little debate. It was all started when Ann, one of my friend said that she saw him chatting with a girl in the cafe, our cafe.However, he said that she is only his school-friend, but I just couldn't forgive such a betrayal he made. Finally, he promised that he won't do that again. Ok, something should get worse before it got better.
Dear diary
May, 22nd
I don't know what happened to him, but he turns to be so cold. This afternoon, when we went to a theater, he didn't even hold my hand, and in the evening when he brought me home, he didn't give me a 'good night kiss'. I fancy there is another girl :(
Dear diary
May, 23rd
I started this day with a bad mood, because when I woke up, he texted me. He said that we will not be able to meet for several days ahead because he have to go out of this city for his work. Oh.. It's gonna be a boring days without him. I don't know how to spend my time, my holidays.
Dear diary
May, 29th
It is the sixth day he neither gives me any news about him and his work, nor asking about mine, but in the afternoon, I got a letter from him. He said that there was no signal in there. I smell a rat on him, it must be another girl. TT
Dear diary
June, 1st
He finally return, but he did not change at all, he still a cold person. This afternoon we met at the cafeteria, and I just can't believe in what he said that he wanted to stay away from me just for a little while. He said that he need to refresh his mind from the saturation of our courtship. From that, I nod and just leave, I didn't care about all excuses he made. I just know that there is something.
Dear diary
June, 3rd
When I was at the mall, there came a boy who came up and had a chat with me. Actually I didn't wanna do this, but I am sure that my BF must be doing this too. So I took advantage of this situation, at least, if he jilted me, I won't be so lonely in frustration and desperation. Overall, it will be fair enough.
Dear diary
June, 4th
I think, my 'friendship' with this new guy is intimating, we hold hand, I knew he want me, but my BF just too precious, of course I don't wanna lose him, and I don't wanna lose this new guy too. I love my boyfriend, yet I like and feel comfortable with this new guy. I just don't wanna be alone. I need caring, attention, and loving.
Dear diary
June, 6th
It was the chaotic and unfortunate day ever! I was with him when suddenly I got a SMS from my boyfriend who was on the way here. In panic, I explained everything to the guy sat in front of me and asked him to hide in a toilet for a moment. I could see disappointment on his face. 10 later, my BF came. We were in a serious talk regarding our relationship when my 'boy-friend' came and told him everything. He told my BF all what I told him, the miserable relationship, his vices, and my discomfort, and everything!
I was speechless, I just didn't understand why this dumb boy told my BF everything. He said that he wanted to make all things clear, but what he do is
making all things worse.
After a long conversation, my BF asked me if I wanted to leave that guy and came back to him. Of course I said that I do, but unexpectedly he jilted me and said that he was not an option, and left.
And now, I am here all alone in the darkness of the night. I hope I could turn back the time.
Dear diary
May 17 th
In my 18th birthday, I am very happy, but it was completely a different 'happy' from the one in last year. This day, I was happy with my friends and families of course.
When I was checking by birthday presents, I saw a dirty book below my bed. Oh... it was my diary. Reading all of my write, make me laugh out loud. I don't understand how stupid I was.
I was too close with him so that I cannot put love sign between our name.
Now I know, that things will be pretty if we make it as it is, and I know that a beautiful things will lose its beauty as we try to posses it.
Dear diary
May, 20th
This day, I have made some agreement regarding our relationship. We've agreed that because we have been dating, we have to put each of us in the first place. Of course, we have tied with the bond of love, so that we have to be together no matter what will happened. Oh thanks God, I can be with him more often. :D
Dear diary
May, 21st
Today, we have a little debate. It was all started when Ann, one of my friend said that she saw him chatting with a girl in the cafe, our cafe.However, he said that she is only his school-friend, but I just couldn't forgive such a betrayal he made. Finally, he promised that he won't do that again. Ok, something should get worse before it got better.
Dear diary
May, 22nd
I don't know what happened to him, but he turns to be so cold. This afternoon, when we went to a theater, he didn't even hold my hand, and in the evening when he brought me home, he didn't give me a 'good night kiss'. I fancy there is another girl :(
Dear diary
May, 23rd
I started this day with a bad mood, because when I woke up, he texted me. He said that we will not be able to meet for several days ahead because he have to go out of this city for his work. Oh.. It's gonna be a boring days without him. I don't know how to spend my time, my holidays.
Dear diary
May, 29th
It is the sixth day he neither gives me any news about him and his work, nor asking about mine, but in the afternoon, I got a letter from him. He said that there was no signal in there. I smell a rat on him, it must be another girl. TT
Dear diary
June, 1st
He finally return, but he did not change at all, he still a cold person. This afternoon we met at the cafeteria, and I just can't believe in what he said that he wanted to stay away from me just for a little while. He said that he need to refresh his mind from the saturation of our courtship. From that, I nod and just leave, I didn't care about all excuses he made. I just know that there is something.
Dear diary
June, 3rd
When I was at the mall, there came a boy who came up and had a chat with me. Actually I didn't wanna do this, but I am sure that my BF must be doing this too. So I took advantage of this situation, at least, if he jilted me, I won't be so lonely in frustration and desperation. Overall, it will be fair enough.
Dear diary
June, 4th
I think, my 'friendship' with this new guy is intimating, we hold hand, I knew he want me, but my BF just too precious, of course I don't wanna lose him, and I don't wanna lose this new guy too. I love my boyfriend, yet I like and feel comfortable with this new guy. I just don't wanna be alone. I need caring, attention, and loving.
Dear diary
June, 6th
It was the chaotic and unfortunate day ever! I was with him when suddenly I got a SMS from my boyfriend who was on the way here. In panic, I explained everything to the guy sat in front of me and asked him to hide in a toilet for a moment. I could see disappointment on his face. 10 later, my BF came. We were in a serious talk regarding our relationship when my 'boy-friend' came and told him everything. He told my BF all what I told him, the miserable relationship, his vices, and my discomfort, and everything!
I was speechless, I just didn't understand why this dumb boy told my BF everything. He said that he wanted to make all things clear, but what he do is
making all things worse.
After a long conversation, my BF asked me if I wanted to leave that guy and came back to him. Of course I said that I do, but unexpectedly he jilted me and said that he was not an option, and left.
And now, I am here all alone in the darkness of the night. I hope I could turn back the time.
Dear diary
May 17 th
In my 18th birthday, I am very happy, but it was completely a different 'happy' from the one in last year. This day, I was happy with my friends and families of course.
When I was checking by birthday presents, I saw a dirty book below my bed. Oh... it was my diary. Reading all of my write, make me laugh out loud. I don't understand how stupid I was.
I was too close with him so that I cannot put love sign between our name.
Now I know, that things will be pretty if we make it as it is, and I know that a beautiful things will lose its beauty as we try to posses it.
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