I think, realizing that having done something foolish is sign of maturation, awakening and moving on. As time goes by, these days I always feel stupid to something that I was sure to be very cool and right in the past.
One of which is became possessive to my girls. Now I feel like a dumb Alay every time I remember it. What I mean is who am I? why should I be so possessive? I feel like a ten-year-old-boy in the playhouse who is pretending to be a husband of my faked spouse in my faked home.
Another stupidity I have ever made is fighting with my best friend for a woman as if two derelict struggle to obtain a scum. We finally know that she teases men merely as a formality to conceal her real identity. I am grateful to realize it soon.
Being a man who was swearing on the social media, having my hair dyed in the style of a boyband, wearing a tight trousers as if the grannies who wear legging was one of my foolishness, and the worse thing is that I became an Alay for about 2 years.
Being burdened by the mistakes in the past and the expectation for the future often made me feel my happiness was bridled and my freedom was bounded. It was my silliness as well, and now I realize that I live in the present and all I have to do is to forget the past, concern a little about the future and just be the best of myself in the present and let the surprises in the future make my life to be more challenging.
Now, I find myself doing something silly again, but I just have not figured it out yet. I hope I will realize it soon and find the other stupidity in my life.
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